There is always a priority list that goes along with us. May be it is not that much clear but knowingly or unknowingly we do what we think is important for us. At some point our mind speaks it, the way we do work speaks it out. The reason why it is important to understand is because it is the first and foremost prerequisite to deliver yourself at the panorama of success. I am not defining what it can be for you, for me it can be making the right point and conveying what exactly I want to convey, for someone else it can be making money, point is whatever it is going to be we need to be honest with ourselves. The reason I am writing this is because I have something in mind, the reason you have come up to this word is because you have something in mind, may be you are procrastinating, may be you are profiling me or may be you want to get the most out of my personal blog, we always have a priority list and we work with it.
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Genuine things arise from the cutting edge of imitation, you find your existence when there are certain limitations and unsolved problems, but to reach where you know solutions are ; is a very long journey indeed, that is some point where you will stand, have been through all sort of tricks and knowledge used so far.
Some problems which are easy to solve has invisible barrier to entry points, may be going for it isn't that cool or the buzz you want to create is very less. Interviewing yourself is also such a problem. I want you to repeat yourself again and again. I believe that experience comes from repeating works.
When we follow the self decided path we notice that every thing says same, including the bad article which you have been through, you know yourself that it also wanted to say the same. I tell you one important thing, not because I am someone to say, just because I saw some of them and their way they happens. We repeat things, no no , you are getting me absolutely wrong, we don't repeat our work, we repeat others in us. I love the difference between declaration and definition, we all know just declaration of functions is not enough, without definitions programs never compile. Pardon my words if they are harsh.
If you have done really an awesome thing and somebody knows, he will let other know, good things asserts itself, am I right ? no.. right, wrong doesn't mean anything, don't share too much of yourself. If you really want to build something great, (yes me too) then best thing is to observe, not individuals, work done by those individuals.
Creation is not some rocket science, it is a measure of time + evaluated behavioral science along with the time. You know science is great, technology is great, it's also an ally of your procrastination, you never want to know how much of your behavioral science intersects with this great science. Are you just engulfed in choices or doing good with your decisions, lots of choices doesn't mean that we are doing good, our decisions make us great. Notice yourself while doing work, while reading newspaper, how you read it, your eyes want to get over the whole newspaper in just one second because you keep always in your mind that there is much more than this.
Our psychology is symbolic, when we cry , when we laugh we certainly have something in our mind, that's good to know, notice yourself define those symbols and tune them, most of them are unnecessary lying there, remove them and free yourself. In the end you will teach yourself - either it is a wrong statement or be a right statement, they wanted to say the same thing, "don't get me wrong, get me always right'.
Have you ever felt it,
If you understand the reasonable part of this fear, this should be your nightmare, yes getting lost. I know that upcoming time must not be my comfort zone, as it has been the biggest irrelevant logic in bad times, but reverse to normal conditions where we want to stabilize, when you want to earn something really from your heart, your tendency is against the stream and that is going towards uncomfortable zone from comfortable zone, and I fear getting lost in between.
This process is so subtly slow that you never know when you have stopped making some progress. Justifying your mind and body becomes the easiest way to overcome this argument that you have stopped making progress from where you started long time ago. This fear of getting lost should be the biggest one in this duration.
I remember when I was into C programming language in school time, I didn't have access to internet that time so I made a list of books and their prices, and estimated how long and how much it would take me to learn C 'completely' . Today I understand that this type of completion never makes sense until you get involved in solving some real problems using the tool set you are learning.
But there was a gain from that list, it was always in my diary and reminding me of my targets, to cover all the concepts of C, this list always escaped me from getting lost for two years. Today I found that list while cleaning up my old set of books and I was surprised on things and sequences those brought me here what I am.
So I am making a new one.
Two types of tasks are there:
One you are credited for and one you are not credited for.
One which gives you immediate results and one, which is just a milestone or becomes a base for a task which in future will give you some immediate result. We are after visible results and visible credits, because our life is important.. not for us but for others.
Somebody just starts from one corner and all the way he turns right, sometimes he turns left just keeping in mind that he has to move diagonally and eventually has to reach at the second corner.
Somebody stops and starts thinking, he invests thirty five minutes of his time in thinking what he is, what he requires to do this task, how it should be done, what should be the output then he makes it and does it within next fifteen minute.
Next time he knows that this is the same task what he has worked upon thoroughly so he can complete it within fifteen minutes but unexpectedly he takes 20 minutes, these extra 10 minutes were consumed for an unexpected behaviour of task this time, that was not faced last time, he adds an experience this time and is intrigued for the next time.
One thing is for sure if you look things as how they are built you discover a whole new world.
I used to think that the side which I face when I sit at work, always affects my work, then I found that the source of light affects the brightness of laptop lid and changes the way I think.
Some good music and a little tasty food can change the way you percept the world.
Life is beautiful and colourful until you wakeup early in morning, I found it impossible to wakeup early so I waited for the morning whole night and understood the fact that dawn comes after the dark. Let's wake up this night and walk in the street light and find the life even in the sleeping hours.
Background music of early 70 80 bollywood music had a sharp impact on the mood of audience.
I always wanted to do some kung fu but since dragon warrior has already been discovered, I am trying my hands in computers.
We are same all the time after having breakfast, after winning Nobel prize, what we try to do is more effective than what has been done by us.
Writing code is easier than making a sandwich when I know what is to be code and which butter is to be used.
Kids are smart and that smart kid will say the same thing when he/she will grew up. And why they are always busy because they are always exploring something even when they smile at you. And because this is the most natural thing to do, we find them amusing. They are bold because they are unaware of stupid facts.
If logic is the only thing I have, I cannot learn, I need to forget everything I learned while learning something new.
I want to write about an evening, this is as common as it comes daily but sometimes when I walk towards the temple behind my place, voices coming from this temple distracts me from everything. Life is as simple as the calm scenery around this temple, we worship what we believe. Why faith heals us is just because of devotion, never ever someone wants to be a reason, he devotes everything, so the misfortune. This god is a symbol made of stone but drives everything. Sometimes I too feel spiritual when nothing exciting happens, I feel spiritual when everything that was into my mind has been executed without any result.
It is strange we always find world something other than from our taste, other than the taste we live in, that's why we need to learn. As I see sometimes this need of learning becomes too artificial that it throws away some of our natural intellectual properties. Learning is a long process to discover how things are altered, sometimes knowledge just plays a role to understand difference among things. We start with things without the reason of existence, then we move further to learn difference among things having reasonable existence unknown, we keep going and keep going.
Soon the small girl comes into my mind, she is playing at this open space, running round and round, she is a perfectionist in her own way, she is a kind of subtle object to observe in this scene, some of her older cousins are playing their own games but one of them starts running after her and wants to catch her. She doesn't know the difference in between simply running and running under some rules and becomes able to pursue affection. This place is not the playground but indeed this place looks like a place to forget some differences, a place to be with one or probably more discoveries.
Sometimes it happens that I invest lots of time looking at others, the part where we feel low certainly comes from the fact of being aware about some differences. The point where these differences end, are very soothing. Variety of temples and problem of selecting one of them to visit is directly an indication of confusion among spectacular varieties. If you know quantitatively less your problems are less, if you know that you still don't know about more and more qualities, probability of getting into some problems is even more less. If you know that someone knows more, then it's a problem, not for him, it is for you. If you know the differences, problem starts, if you know just one thing, just one way to go at some place where difference ends, everything tries to solve itself out.
Looking at some books, various authors, various thoughts.
The thing I notice is how I have started loving long descriptive things, as far as I remember I loved story books. Short stories are fast, they experiment fast, they are driven by the power of imagination, imagination of author as well as imagination of reader.
At some point, in these short stories many things are obvious assumptions, you can explain a character based on your power of imagination though author didn't. When it is complete you just remember the punch thought that provoked when it ended
Long narrations are continuous, if it is complex then you build concepts while reading it, you learn characters while thinking about it. Once you complete at some point and get back after an interval, you feel like you have forgotten many things.
The work we love doing is our identity, It takes a long time to be what we are, it's a kind of long narration we read, learn and observe continuously, once we leave we forget our powers.
I can see one plain text pattern of rustic life, so simple so calm. The most important things is having lower expectations and high points of joy over low inputs. What we can learn is to be joyful even in the limited conditions. Go to a remote village and join a worship session with localities, see them, they have some 'can dos' and 'cant dos', the devotion part of this thinking is attached all the time with their deity.
This portion of complete devotion comes out with graduating ideas and thoughts, some of them are inherited as they are and some are adopted in a little deprecated way, and some are taken further even if the reason of existence has vanished in the upheavals of journey of time.
Some thoughts carry a class with them, when you ask the reason behind, you will be considered as an atheist or some kind of alien person because you dared to raise the question behind the existence of some unreasonable thing. This may be a flipped side of devotion that is derogative in some sense. Devotion never pushes you away from being rationale.
This is unfair to look at advantages in rules belonging to such a game, which is not being played by you. In each position leverage one may have will be different but you see similar characters in players, similar targets.
So the thing which creates difference depends on your end point. What end point you have chosen decides the entire script. Nobody gets the extra time, extra options. The push that executes things is only driven by your need.
Are you happy at your achievement, open your eyes it may be the height from where you are about to fall down. You can afford this fall, if you are up to your end point and have not decided to stay on that height along the way. If not then it was the greatest risk when you thought you have achieved everything.
False sense of achievement is one heuristic which needs to be culled when you are into something big. You can see the castle in air which is still amorphous, but is visible to you as of this false sense of achievement.
A lot more can happen, many things can happen in many ways, apart from that, the way you choose depends on your intuition, and intuitions are based on knowledge settled in your nerves. A knowledge settled in your nerves is a knowledge that you use unconsciously, you never know when and how you are using it.
Hunger and emptiness are two privileges, having plenty of resources is an awesome thing but the 'awareness' of having plenty of resources adds value to the false sense of achievement.
It is as simple as we believe in God, some people are agnostic, some people can tell the reason why they believe in God and some can't but some believe in God because other people do so. Similarly you know what 'can' happen, but when you carry the emptiness with you, you also know what can't happen and can't afford to have a false sense.
But then why do you live this emptiness, of course to fill something inside the empty space, what can be filled is completely an unknown entity. Knowing this unknown entity is all about your vision.
The process of filling the emptiness is the most painful thing happens to be here, but amazingly it will be the most memorable thing when you will complete it. We borrow patterns, again want to get into this process but realistically don't want to suffer the pain again because we know we don't need to do it again and again, and of course we feel no reason living it forcefully just because we want to make things happen in the same way as we did when we were empty. This is a common pattern when we carry the false sense of achievement.
Make sure that you are going to remind yourself, what you have achieved was not possible to some extent for you, as you have done those impossible things and you are sitting at the stack of a false sense that tells you that you should now head towards possible ways, don't forget to look for impossible ways that can drastically open some more possible ways. Eventually they will bring you at the exact point where you are right now. Believe me .. nothing .. I say nothing changes in this process except the calmness of inner satisfaction that you achieve just after doing a thing that you really wanted to do.