Paras Kuhad

It often happens when I deny myself, is it a need ....or something else ? The most hard task I find is to keep stuffs simple and stupid.

I m running and running.. whenever I stop implications are more heavier than the cause.
You find the thing interesting when it seems acquainted. You want to yell on others see .. this is what i know. But life is not like that.
I ask myself is this the triumph of my life as I feel my existence in front of this screen. My surrounding deny myself .. for my surprise they put the fact that I am just a dead operator and even this screen is a more living stuff.
I suspect that I merge myself with the dead part. Do you want to let another know that this is the expertise.... well, who knows .. it is a parameter which is very valuable to you .. but no matter at all because another one is using another function that doesn't accept parameters at all !

My storm culminating into the big question where is the happiness.. I asked myself .. some answers came : emmm .. when I wrote a stable code snippet that do something , or the geeky story when i made the stuff working.
This is what I did when it was the need. My need demands work that requires skill set .. I do the job, if not able then make myself and when it completes... I feel calm.. but letting my living my part to this dead stuff is only a mean to raise my problem of denying myself. This is what I do.
And of course it may be the cause of my ego set and more problems. Ok .. what when I keep it continue ..saturation comes and I cry .. what the hell I am doing .. where is my happiness !

So I am a stupid :)

Whole wrongs have been done only right ones are remaining. The thing is to accept yourself if you say yourself stupid then done as it is a parameter the use of this parameter depends on the function body .. and this body is in ur hand write n execute whatever u want. Live up !!

Cheers!!